Suicidal Sacrifice [LitRPG Timeloop]

[HEAVY CONTENT WARNING: This work includes heavy suicide and existential contemplating. It does not seek to glorify suicide in any shape or form. The protagonist is TEMPORARILY SUICIDAL but will GET BETTER. DON'T IGNORE THIS.] Long after the eldritch invaded the Earth and taught humans about the secrets of Soul-Traits, Kuri has grown up in a "Farm" where they raise children who are born with a superior trait for sacrifice. Of all of them, only he is the [Peerless Sacrifice], with enough sacrificial power to super-charge whoever he's sacrificed to.  Lucky him, being a glorified elixir for an eldritch god's growth.  But, on the day of the sacrifice, right before he is consumed by It Who Devours Time Eternal, he kills himself, sacrificing himself... to himself! Now with a series of fortunate skill gains and evolutions, he becomes the [Suicidal Sacrifice] and gains the [Time Loop] skill. With every death, he turns time back with all the power he's gained, slowly turning from a down on his luck orphan to an unstoppable, god-slaying powerhouse. Effective immortality sounds pretty sweet, right? Too bad the protagonist's trying to die! What happens when a suicidal maniac who's had the short end of the stick all his life gets the power to change things? One thing's for sure: Get ready for a whole lotta homicide. Has: - Psychopathic, villainous MC - A great deal of dying - MANY skills, including wacky ones like Suicide! -Skill merging and evolution! (A lot, in fact.) - Existential crises like whether we exist or not or if anything we do matters or if oh god why are we even alive we should all - Inspired by Path of the Deathless and The Stubborn Skill-Grinder in a Time-Loop (Go check those out!) DOESNT HAVE: - Harem - Not suicide -Team dynamics (MC will make the occasional friendo, but never permanent!)